Day 84 and the pink cloud is definitely not so fluffy today. I, like many women really struggle with hormones and mine are not playing ball today. I am feeling low and a bit weepy, to be honest.
Pms is one of the main reasons I struggled to stop drinking. I could be feeling happy and relaxed, trying really hard to abstain then BAM! PMS would strike. This would lead to me feeling like I needed something to escape how I was feeling. Alcohol gave me that result (for a very short while).
Just before ovulation progesterone and estrogen hormone levels spike. If there is no pregnancy then the levels drop. This rise and fall of hormones is thought to lower the serotonin levels in the brain, which can lead to depression and anxiety. Sadly, this led me (and many other women) to reach for the wine. Not doing this is difficult, if like me you have done it for years. Seeing it as an easy fix means it is very difficult to challenge this idea in your own mind.
It’s a vicious cycle, several studies have shown that PMS is linked with increased use of alcohol and increased use of alcohol can increase the symptoms of PMS. So, drinking for a sustained amount of time was actually making me worse, but the feelings brought on by PMS were making me feel like I had no choice but to drink. It was a very hard merry go round to get off.
It’s been a few months now and yes I do feel a tad rubbish today but in general, since I have stopped drinking alcohol and started exercising, I am feeling so much better. Fluctuating hormones are an absolute nightmare for moods and can actually be completely debilitating. When I began my sobriety journey, I had no idea that this would be a benefit of no longer drinking, but I am delighted that it is.